Forever and Always

These two words seem to be used very haphazardly these days.. same goes for many other words which are very sacred and important, people just keep them lying around anywhere these days. Then realisation struck that like life is growing shorter, things are getting faster, forevers are also getting shorter!!
So just like we are getting used to shorter life spans and a faster life style, the things which had their beauty in length are maybe trying to find their roots in something else.. Wonder what though.. Forever and always meant forever and always.. what will it mean now?

Leveller, Lessons, Reality

Pain and rain, seem to be levellers in a way.. Rain the one which comes un-announced, maybe like a summer tempest, when all young old rich poor are caught unawares.. It drenches them all. Levels them.
Pain on the other hand could be of any kind, it drenches everyone too.. That is the time when we actually come alive and open our eyes to the realities of life.. That is when we know what the truth is. We may lose our mind to pain sometimes, but the realisations and realities come to the fore exactly during those moments of pain..
It teaches us a lesson everytime it comes around, unlike any other feeling or emotion, it pain that talks to us, is always with us.. Rest of the emotions are too selfish and short lived. I might sound like a pessimist or maybe even a masochist, but its not so..
We get drowned in the pain, when it wants us to rise.. We drown in it and we also lose the lesson that it meant to teach us.. The realities of life that it shows us, which are hidden away behind drapes of happiness, envy, joy, laughter, anger, romance.. It is only pain which unveils them.. Its only pain which is capable of slapping us right in the face and making us face the reality, and still be with us, and hold us through, bring us back to life..
So rain and pain, the two levellers, teaching us lessons about realities of life.. :)

Sunset

Watched the sun go down today from the balcony.. It was a red ball, as opposite as it can get, it appeared soothing and calm for some reason.. reassuring even..
It is the rendez-vous of day and night.. and the night will come, gradually.. Somewhere it is dawn.. and a new day is born.. pain, joy, numbness.. all come together.. when the sunsets upon us.. it promised me a new day.. :)

Liberated

It feels nice to be free from something. Maybe something bad or painful, be it physical pain or mental.. Sometimes it feels nice to be free from good things too.. Its just the state of being free, from no matter what, its like an elixir.. :) guess we get entangled only to be freed at some point of time.. from anything.. to be liberated..

Companionship

Something that comes from within.. Something that gets lost, when searched for outside.. :) Something that is always there, but lays forgotten..

colors

The sky is draped in beautiful colors this season.. Evenings get cooler, breezy..
There is hope in the air, of the on coming winter and the various promises it entails.. :)

il fait beau

Another puddle in the same place.. The wait seems to be long, for the rain to stop..
But the again, as Emily says: C'est parcequ'il pleut que tu pleures, c'est quand tu souris qu'il fait beaus.. (please pardon my bad french, and maybe wrong conjugations) :) So it shall be sunny cause the nothing can wipe out the flame that is hope.. Il toujours fait beau au coeur dans lequel habit l'espoir.. :) now thats what i said, not Emily.. ;) :D

I found..

Today i saw a new morning! a new hope in my heart.. and an un-stoppable smile!! :)
I saw care and truth behind the eyes which hurt seeing my pain and yet tried to make me smile, while they gulped the pain in my eyes as their own.. :)
I saw assurance, i saw real love, unconditional.. i saw friendship.. i saw all that i needed.. and i found it right besides me.. holding me, smiling for me..
I found music.. deep within my soul.. I found a long lost love..
I found a new morning today.. :) I found the sun again.. I found a fresh new fragrance.. I found myself.. :)

Little Girls..

Early morning, traffic on the road, and a few little girls, holding each others' hands crossing the road.. People brake and curse the parent who is walking ahead trying to wade his way, holding one of the girls' hand, while the other make a chain behind her, and then they move on.. people miss, the fear in the eyes of the tiny creatures.. and the trust with which they hold on to each other.. What was to happen if either one left their hand.. by mistake maybe.. but they don't they hold on.. no matter what.. :)
And they trust each other blindly.. which is rewarded.. they shall stay together always.. :)
The tiny girls.. god bless them..

Happy thoughts! :)

The sky is clear because there are no clouds..
There is no sun because it is setting..
There are no birds, they've gone to their nests..
There is just me who is tired of the rest..
The sun will rise again in the east,
and the maybe we'll have a feast!
Life is a celebration, it is not a pain..
Cause every festival has a different aim!
Winter is on its way,
And love is waiting to be gay..
You shall come one day of that i know..
To share smiles and tears alike..
No matter were they lead us,
Our roads are destined to meet..
And then we will walk.. hand in hand.. till the end.. and later.. :)

Energy

A broken heart radiates a lot of energy.. It needs to be put to use.. I noticed it being used for mostly reacting to the hurt, used for causing more hurt. It needs to be channelized properly, otherwise it can be disastrous.. very very dangerous.. for the holder and everyone around him/her..
This energy needs to be deviated to the right activities..
Everything brings something positive.. :)

Dragon files..

Two dragon flies mating.. Flying away.. Exhilarated..
And then they disppeared into the brightness of the sun..
I'm sure one of them exploded.. ;) :)

A smile

The curve of the lips.. upward.. increasing..
The hearts are still warm and open..
And they make me laugh..
More importantly they make smile.. :)
I noticed a smile..

Heart of a friend, and an old heart

Today i saw an old man letting a young chap go ahead in the line at the petrol pump.. It feels nice when someone does even such a small act of kindness and generosity.. :)

Last night i felt the heart of a friend. The warmth of that patient heart. I also sensed the heart of a lover trying to over-come it.. But a friend sustained..

a cuckoo and a puddle

Today there was a cuckoo, hopping on branches, trying to get to the juciest of all berries. Elegantly, nonchalantly, happily. There was a biggish puddle of water on the ground, from the lashes of rain last night, with shadows of the trees swaying around.. The sun was up though, unlike yesterday.. The sun shall stay.. :) it is a nice morning generally..

A tiny bird

From the office balcony, as i thought about the morning's events while sipping on some black concoction, i noticed a tiny bird.. in a balcony of the building opposite ours.. there is generally no one there.. in the pool of algae ridden water and old rubble.. there it was hopping about, and pecking at supposed chunks of food-algae.. happily moving about, alone.. being with itself.. i observed it, till it got lost behind some rock, and took the moment to leave it alone, with itself.. :)

Extremes and opposites

Today morning, when rain played around with the fresh delicate rays of sun, i actually peeped out of the window and saw few things, while drying my hair, and that is the main reason that led me into writing this blog..

The windows were closed and the curtains drawn, i open them both, and stared listelessly at the small patch of ground and trees visible from where i was.. and there i saw them, a pair of Mongoose.. Playing around with each other :) it was so refreshing to see them there.. One moment they fooled around as if there was nothing around but each other.. and the next the froze and ran away at the slightest noise of intruders around.. But the ran away togther.. :) how often do we get to see or even notice such display of varied feelings? apart from within ourselves?

It was nice to see nature maniest itself in those two creatures.. Made me wish i could've been a dumb creature of nature rather than a human being.. :)