Vengeance

The title sounds way away from the theme of this blog, but there is something coming out of it too.. A recent few weeks have wreak complete havoc on my senses, all my senses, be it physical, struggling to stand or not knowing when the brain will give way and resign.. mental, emotional, losing track of time, forgetting where i was, trances.. all of them. I've struggled to hold on to something i believed in.. Like a drowning man holds on to a twig in the ocean, wanting to trust, and wanting fight all the demons that were right there waiting to charge me down.. Finally letting them triumph for the fear of losing everything all over again, though i did lose everything all over again..
Varied thoughts ransacked my brain, varying degrees of them. This post is about one such feeling i felt very strongly one night, i've never felt it so strongly before, and i've never controlled myself to such an extent before. it took all my might to fight this one, though i acted upon it a bit, had i acted upon it completely the results would've been disastrous. i hope this post will show some light to people who have felt the same, or are feeling the same.. I hope it gives you a path, which requires strength. A lot of strength.


Vengeance does not stop at one thing. It gets you greedy. Its a vicious creature that feeds on itself. If even one tiny seed is planted, it grows into the most ugly, bloody, blood-thirsty monster ever known. It murders the soul and thrives on itself. Nothing can kill it but determination. Keeping the soul about its tempting, all consuming grip. Its dangerous, its tricky, let the poison not grow. It leaves wounds which stay forever young, un-erasable, on the person who faces its wrath, but more on the hearth and mind of the person who seeks it. Nip it in the bud. It only causes decay, of the soul.. It leaves scars that remain forever, the wound does not scab over and heal.. Vengeance is sweet, its cold, but its never enough. Its like an addiction,it tempts like none other. kill it before it kills you. mercy can vanquish this creature of hell. Don't let it possess you. Let go..

Pray for strength.. Strength to hold on or let go, whatever it is that you want. But never let this feeling cage your heart or mind. its only causes more pain.